Hi Everyone,

as some of you seen my very close friend died last week. Her funeral was yesterday, possibley- no, actually it was the worst day of my entire life & I hope that I never have to go through that pain again. I'm completley heartbroken, havn't ate in 3days & i'm not even hungry, I've slept about 2 hours each night since I found out on Thursday & i'm just so emotionally & physically drained. I don't know how i'm gonna cope with this but I hope Rachel will give me the strength to go on somehow.

So to cut a long story short I'm not going to be very actively modelling for a while until I get my head sorted, rachel was so proud of me modelling so I don't want to give up completley but i'm not in a very good frame of mind at the moment & can't see any reason to smile so if I don't reply to emails please forgive me, I know there are some shoots i'm in talks about but I will explain to those togs personally. I want to concentrate all my energy & time on my friends who like me are hurting so much & for those who mean so much to me I want to spend my time with them showing them how much I love them as I hadn't had much time with Rachel in the last few months & I regret it sooooo much. I thought we would have the rest of our lives to see each other but I didn't know her life was gonna be cut so short.

I wish you all luck for the future months & hope to return to modelling later in the year.

Lots of Love,

Lisa xx